Isolation : Day 1

He woke me up while getting his keys

at 8:35AM

I wish he wouldn't leave but I know he doesn't want to either

He kissed me on the forehead and the door closes

I thought I couldn't cry anymore since I've already cried for 2 straight days

I thought wrong

As always

I turn off the pain by unplugging my graphic card

It worked for awhile

Listening to Wish You Were Here triggered my emotions

But I just kept going on

I ate dumplings instead of the usual ramen

Went out to purchase company's order with TangLiang

Then he drove me home

Wishing the work was more so it can make me busier 

So I wouldn't have free time to think

Silence in the room makes it harder

So I'm glad I have Ray, Anna and Derrick to talk to me

Wellcast videos help too

6:30pm

Oh the horror

To go down or not to go down

I should, but I really don't want to

The salty, oily food that gives you kidney disease 

The horrible horrible people fake smiling

And the pure pressure of eating in front of my boss

I'm having indigestion just thinking about it

Oh what the heck

My plan for tonight is to eat a little and then work out

So I might as well endure the physical pain twice

Boss bought a Mopidick-s for hubby

"Hunny I told you your dad loves you! Silly boy"

Socializing with a bunch of retards isn't hard

Pretending that I didn't care that one of them is talking shit about me right to my face is way easy

C'mon guys

I have won a Best Actress for The Yeh Household Award

I'm invincible

8:30pm and I couldn't handle it..

I fell asleep

and at 9pm a jerk woke me up

URGH

why does my work bother me 24 hours a day?

Failed task today : Working Out.

I'm just too tired to do it

Or maybe it's just the food coma

Shouldn't have eating rice

I'm too full to move

9:30pm and I'm starting to get a little worried

He promised me to text right after he lands but till now not a word or a reply

I've sent via Line, via WeChat and even direct text message

He should be able to get it

What's happening?

Trying so hard to turn off my Graphic Card again SHEESH

I promised myself to go to bed at 11pm 

But it's already 12am and he still hasn't call me

Really hoping it's just because he's busy

Although I never get how anyone couldn't spare 5 minutes to text or call

Is it so hard?

I ate up my feelings

I mean Oreos and Pockys

Finish my day with happiness from Simon and Martina

Hoping to get a sweet dream

And wake up feeling blessed tomorrow

Fingers crossed.